Hello Beautiful People,
Today I feel like a million bucks and a bag of sh$& at the same time.
This is because Sydney winter has suddenly reared its ugly head again! Ughhhh rain with toddlers and trying to get fit is horrible, I hate being house bound.
And our mini beautiful Princess Florence didn’t sleep again last night and wanted to breastfeed non-stop all night….. I have bags so big under my eyes that if I went to the Airport they would charge me an excess baggage fee…. 😏
Anyway I feel a million bucks because Ive given myself a break with the guilt tripping about breastfeeding. With a lot of patience, love and caring my baby girl took her first bottle of formula and I feel like I’ve won the lottery for it! 😬
Don’t get me wrong, I love breastfeeding and as a Registered Nurse I’m a huge advocate for it. I know all the health benefits associated with it both physically and mentally for mum and bubba. I’ve even worked in NICU, newborn care, and done courses to teach and support women in breastfeeding.
However, I know as much as the next woman that sometimes it just isn’t as easy as it is assumed to be. Or it may be really natural and easy for some but not for others.
Just as every baby is different, so can every breastfeeding experience be.
I’ve breastfeed FIVE babies.
The first one I had mastitis so bad I ended up back in hospital on antibiotics. After months of cracked nipples, cranky, constantly vomiting baby it was discovered she was severely lactose intolerant and ended up on formula anyway. I was relieved and annoyed at the same time. Breastfeeding = Unsuccessful 😏
The second baby had some attachment issues and had reflux. I often had an oversupply followed by an under supply and it was difficult to regulate the flow (with massive boobs) for bubba so he constantly had a belly ache and was vomiting too. With a lot of persistence and positioning we lasted 9months. Breastfeeding = Successful (but challenging) 😌
Third time I breastfed bubba and I seemed the perfect fit and there were no problems at all. 12 months Breastfeeding = Very successful 😊
The fourth time, to avoid the cracked nipples I’d had so many times before, I used nipple shields for the first month. Again with all the other kids I had an over supply then undersupply. Fed every 2-3 hours for four months, day and night. Then added in some bottles to get some more sleep. Lasted 6 months Breastfeeding =Successful (but exhausting)
This time, fifth time, my milk took days to come in, then an oversupply. Bubba has a weak uncoordinated suck (possible minor tongue tie). Supply went straight down after a few weeks and baby has been feeding every 2-3 hours day and night ever since, sometimes feeding for up to an hour 😞
I’ve tried ALL the tips for boosting supply. Sometimes I feel the old supply and demand theory just doesn’t work…. Despite all the research…. Or at least maybe it would if I didn’t mind sitting around with a baby hanging off my boob 24/7…… But I’ve got too much too do, like eat, sleep, look after other kids..
I’m exhausted, bubbas hungry, weight gain is stalling, so giving a few bottles to keep us both healthy (mentally and physically) is imperative 😌
I know Breast is Best and sometimes I love love love breastfeeding my babies…….
Other times I loathe it, and at those times I just know it’s not worth the stress 💛
Besides this Mumma really needs a good night sleep and a good night of getting really
s$&@face drunk 😬😜👊🏼💪🏼❤️
However remember beautiful people, breast is best, but whatever is best for mum and bubba is best too 😉☺️